Baby please don't go, I beg you. Don't go.. I need you here with me, more than before. Baby please, I'll mend my ways. I can't be without you & you know this llove meant so much to me. So so so much to me.. >:'( I know you get so irritated by the fact that I cried so much, cried too much over such a tiny little thing but baby, it was all bacause you mean the world to me. If you collapse, then my world is done, is dead. I'll still be here, I still wanna be the one you whine to, the one you complain everything to. I still wanna be the who pick your dirty clothes when you come home. I still wanna be the only woman who walks in & outta your house. I still wanna be the one who welcome you home. Baby, I still want to be the one who make the dreams we had these five months to come true. How tough is it gonna be, I'll still pull through it, with you. Baby please, I do need you & I'm lloving you so much more than I did before.

Baby, please don't break my heart slow. <3

I couldn't sleep last night. Slept around 2plus. Her words keep going through my head. I forced the tears to stop & my heart ached. I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't lose her & if I do, I can't go on. I felt so sick, I felt like throwing up. I don't know. My heart is still aching, still crying. This time round, sorrys.. No, even I love yous' don't work.. anymore.

I skipped school again. And tonight I'm skipping class too. I couldn't get up this morning, bad headache & fever. >:( Woke up @ 7am,waited for baby to text me but she didn't so I slept @ around 8am. Slept till 9plus, texted baby for awhile. She skipped the first two lectures tday. Woke up @ 10 again & had breakfast. I couldn't finish, no appetite. Did a little work, painted a little. Everything went well. :] I'm glad. Thanks to my maid, she helped e remove the black paint. Even the fake heart is bruised. Sigh, dad bought me out to lunch. Fetched mom first & went to Causeway Point for lunch. Ate @ Sarnu(spell?). Bought my crossword puzzles. :] Two books! It made me a little happier though. Hee. Went to buy webcam & thumbdrive!. Heh. Creative webcam & Imation 1G thumbdrive! Super happy. :] Now I can webcam with my babygirllfriend!!

Went back home. Maid wanted to send a parcel home to Philipines(spell?). so we went to the post office. Omg fucking 19kg! Haha paid $65.65 for it. The guy there is funny. He asked if I want those stamps & I'm like YES! He said, go send letters. So I asked him, to whom? He said, to yourself. -.- Wtf right. Rofl, funny dude. Bought papers for Dad & went home. Tried fixing the webcam. It only works @ the webcam centre but not in MSN. >:( SOMEBODY, HELP ME!! >:( !@$##%%&*(&(#!#@$!@$!@$#@% I haven't try the thumbdrive yet. Oh the thumbdrive can lock!! Yay, all my photos will be locked inside. Esp baby & I's. =)

Jermaine went to hospital when I was in China. >:( Worried sick for her but mom said she's fine already. x) Thank God. :] Mom, Zel, Uncle Eric, Auntie Shirley with Jermaine are watching Hi5 @ indoor stadium now I think. :] Dad said we're gonna fetch them. My head is heavy & so is my fucking bruised heart. Skipping class tonight. And I need someone to be here for me. Sigh

Okay.. One last try okay baby.

I swear, that hurt the most.

♥

If I told you that I need you, would you still catch me if I fall?


Heartbreaks, fake smiles, 2000 miles. >:(


Xavier Lin, I only llove you, I really do.
hugs babygirllfriend :]



(don't let our dreams shatter baby, please don't./)
<3 .

4:25 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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